like a butterfly cupped in my hands I peek in to see beauty trapped

brodyfairy @ 2005-10-10T14:20:00

2005-10-10T21:25:52Z

It's quite obvious I just cannot be bothered with this anymore...I don't know writing about my trivial day to day stuff and have people comment on it so I might update randomly from time to time like "Oooo today Andrew and I saw a ghost riding a bicyle." But I've actually found real people who I can all this LJ emo shit to so it's all good. REAL people...:)

brodyfairy @ 2005-10-05T22:58:00

2005-10-06T22:00:22Z

THE MUSIC ZONE IS COMING BACK TO SOUTHPORT !!!

This song......oh this song...

2005-09-28T23:16:00Z

Bloody Mother Fucking Asshole

Poetry is no place for a heart that's a whore
And I'm young & I'm strong
But I feel old & tired
Overfired

And I've been poked & stoked
It's all smoke, there's no more fire
Only desire
For you, whoever you are
For you, whoever you are

You say my time here has been some sort of joke
That I've been messing around
Some sort of incubating period
For when I really come around
I'm cracking up
And you have no idea

No idea how it feels to be on your own
In your own home
with the fucking phone
And the mother of gloom
In your bedroom
Standing over your head
With her hand in your head
With her hand in your head

I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
When all I wanted was to be good
To do everything in truth
To do everything in truth

Oh I wish I wish I wish I was born a man
So I could learn how to stand up for myself
Like those guys with guitars
I've been watching in bars
Who've been stamping their feet to a different beat
To a different beat
To a different beat

I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
When all I wanted was to be good
To do everything in truth
To do everything in truth

You bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh you bloody mother fucking asshole
Oh you bloody...

I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
For you, whoever you are
For you, whoever you are
For you, whoever you are

brodyfairy @ 2005-09-21T19:22:00

2005-09-22T19:11:18Z

Our life is now it seems determined by angles. fucking angles...well i'd rather dance my blues away in a willow tree with natalie even if you all stare at because I don't really care but that's a lie. I should stop to cry. Or just stop crying....carry on lying.....stop..rhyming.....fuck.

brodyfairy @ 2005-09-19T19:31:00

2005-09-20T18:33:20Z

*wonders* Is Key Skills not in here? Oh ok then....right should I look for it some more? No ok I'll just go and drink beer from a straw with Andrew and random with Gina yes. Is french fun? Noooooooo. Is Geography fun....nooo...is anything fun....

I would go out tonight but I havn't got a stitch to wear.

2005-09-12T20:19:24Z

Ah soooo last night was a bit fab. Went to see We See foxes and Shout Out Louds at the barfly in Liverpool with Lauryn and Simon...random moments:
Being complete scalls in a bus stop with our vodka and whisky.
Door man to Simon- "Are you in the band"
Simon-"No." FOOL!
Listening to The Arcade Fire and calling Nat although she couldn't hear us:( Then We see Foxes came on...they were pretty good...wern't they Lauryn ha :) Had a few JD and cokes whilst Lauryn stuck to her Carling...regreted it this morning on the bus though :S. So we went over to the bar and met the ultimate scall Keiran who was all like "Who likes Arctic Monkeys? " "I met pete docccchherttyyy" and so lauryn talked to him whilst Simon and I talked to the HOT bassist who looked like Fab Moretti from the strokes, well Simon talked I just kinda stared. Then Shout Out Louds were ok but Lauryn went and chatted up the cute bar man chirs. So after SOL we went to Ca Va because We See Foxes did and well it was rather fun...had to stop Simon with that broom mind and with that pole hmmmmmm but alas couldn't stop him running downstairs and singing What Katie Did with the guy from We See Foxes but Lauryn joined in to drown his "Shooop shoooop shoooop f-lang f-langgg". I will end this post here because what happened next was a bit of a blur...oh except for Simon hitting himself on his head with fruit...hmm.

brodyfairy @ 2005-09-08T19:20:00

2005-09-09T18:22:42Z

Today KGV was still amazing. Today Raya, Lauryn, Simon, Nat and I made a man oif sweets. He likes to juggle and to dance his pretty ass of oh yes. I also managed to drop my lollipop in Simons crotch region but he told me to put it in my mouth anyway......only a few people will get this entry I'm sure *sigh*. I also blew bubbles and sat in starbucks....ooooo Sunday should be good yes? Ahh Ooo also the guy in my french class looks like he should be in the coral or something :)

Squee!

2005-09-08T19:21:45Z

KGV KICKS THE ASS OF THE WORLD. So yes went to college today and I cannot express how happy - shocking I know- it has made me.
Met some new nice people:
Simon-generally cool touchy feely kinda guy , love it! He likes Nick Drake, Rufus Wainwright and was at my camp site for leeds so it's all good.
Rory-We randomed around for a while and talked about Razorlight YES someone who doesn't hate the borrell :)
Nat has the cool tutor room with amazing james bond style gadgets :)
Random guy with pink hair dancing to THE CLASH, Arctic Monkeys and Blondie.
I am in no classes with anyone so I'm a bit lonely but met some cool people:
A guy called David who is a little language geek like me :) yey.
A lovely girl in my tutor group with me called Anni.
An equally lovely two girls in my english called Jenny- we bonded over To Kill A Mockingbird and An Inspector Calls.....and a girl called Maddy who seemed to like my pink pen.
I just really like it we all seem really happy and there's no bitchiness and it's all love love love.

Also there's a guy there who IS luke I swear.

Why am I always on a plane or a fast train.

2005-09-07T19:42:10Z

Today was lovely :) Lovely weather...towards the end of the day, lovely people...funny moments "Go on give me a wank.". Nostalgia as we visited our childhood memories which funnily enough consisted of vomiting and nearly dying in the "Fun House.". Defying gravity after much persuasion from Lauryn and the spirit of Carlos *spooky music* Having to make ourselves small to avoid ghosts.....Lauryn buying me a lovely lollipop :) Raya winning me a rather purple bear named Russell. Realising I was quite scared of the most simplest rides....We did own the place mind even if we did have to rest after the scary blue bird things. Oooooh "Santa tried to kill us." yes the woman on the Turbanoooogaaar or whatever ride, her badge said "Santa" hmm how odd....no stoned Paul though damnit although I thought he was on the traumatizer ...which hurt my thighs :( Nat and I managed to shout most funny moments on all the rides including "Proper skank" "Burbies" "Wank." "Go on give me a wank." "Sexayness." "KGV." "Sports Braaa." (ok that was just me) But the best thing that was shouted besides the fair encouraging us to wank it was of course "BADMINTON." Lovely, just lovely...:) Happy Birthday.

Oooooo also got a blast from the past......from tarantula to bumble bee...hmmm !

To Raya: We finally did it! We finally went to the fair! x

Pense...

2005-09-02T20:16:15Z

I am happy because:
I bought lots of clothes today.
I have still seen Kings of Leon live.
I know people a lot more.
I've set some grudges free and embraced people back because they're lovely.

I am sad because:
I know people a lot more.
People keep buying my books.
I sound like a man.

Big Huge Update.

2005-08-29T20:33:55Z

So Right LEEDS fuck yeah as Gerard Way would appear to say. I can't be bothered to right a big entry so will list the bands i saw....

Friday

My Chemical Romance-They Did Our Lady Of Sorrows :) Used most of my camera on the Gerard Wayness
Turbonegro-didn't watch them much they looked like tits.
Alkaline Trio-Ahhh they were fucking awesome...
Funeral For A Friend-Got totally squashed....but it was fun.
NoFX-Ah now that was funny
Iggy and The Stooges-didn't really watch them was tired so i sat.
Maximo Park-Was at the front..how energetic can one band be?
Incubus-mmm yeah they did wish you were here and Brandon looked damn fine.
The Futureheads-Uh oh oh Uh oh oh...enough said.
BLOC PARTY-on the barrier was just out of this world. The NME tent was packed. Russel's fringe was on top form and at the end kele came to shake the front row's hands....caz and I spazzed out completely and actually took a picture of our hands...fucking awesome.

Saturday

The Black Velvets-woke up early to get on the barrier...had to listen to the bloody Jem album like twice whilst waiting. They were crazy..

The Dead 60s-Only caught the end of them

Death From Above 1979-The guy looked like Dave Grohl but they got a bit screamy and "omg would you stop screaming?"

THE SUBWAYS-I met them before they came on and they signed this poster for me and were totally lovely....I used a lot of my camera. Was right at the front and they were amazing..I did nearly cry in Mary but shhh.

Elbow-only watched them sitting down at the end .....made me feel sleepy.

The Coral-Were very happy and people were dancing and smiling. I sat down and ate chips but ran into the crowd for Dreaming of You (which we later sung on "riot" night.)

Queens Of The Stone Age-They opened With Go With The Flow :) SO happy and Before Burn The Witch Josh was like "This is my faveourite song...it's about burning witches". bless. him. He did look quite ill though I was worried about him!

The Killers-Why are they so shit live? Is it because they just play their album because they can't be arsed to make an effort or to interact because they know all the little trendies will know all the words so there work is done...yeah i think so.

Kasabian-I went to see them instead of pixies because I wanted to and they know how to play to a crowd. I was so impressed with them I really was and they seemed really appreciative of the fact the tent was packed like Bloc Party were.

Sunday

I woke up all hyper for Kings of Leon :D

Louie-I think they'd be better without the annoying guy with the curly hair who i later saw. He seems to serve no purpose plus the other guy is better and should be in the strokes.

Editors-I got bored so i went to buy a t shirt and a drink but went back to watch them. I liked the guy's voice. Very Ian Curtis.

The Cribs-Now there's a band. They were so energetic and pretty damn good.

NINE BLACK ALPS-Ah I moved right to the front for them. I went to see if they lived up to the hype and my oh my how the did. I jumped around like a crazy type.

Arcitc Monkeys-Why don't they get their own stage...the carling one was packed and I could just about see but my they're sooooo good. I was very happy to see them.

The Others-Ah bless Dom's cotton socks! I was suprised how close to the front I managed to get with all the madness in that tent.

All American Rejects-Yeah i watched from a far. The guy's voice annoyed me "We're so fucking happy to fucking be here at fucking leeds you're so fucking beautiufl" although I thought he said "we're so fucking beautiful." hmm

Roots Manuva-Don't remember but I remember eating chips.

YETI-Ah was so close to the front. John look so happy because the tent was pretty full up.

Razorlight-Of course they were good but I do think it was a bit samey to how they were in Manchester but never the less I sang along like the true fan that I am.

KINGS OF LEON-I swear to god they made my life let alone my weekend. I was sooooo close and it was great because god bless em no one near me was arsed they just wanted to get a good place for Foo Fighters so i had no trouble seeing my babies. Caleb had his hair tied back and looked beautiufl. Jared looked really Jared like with his hair...god I wanted to faint. Matthew looked nice actually in his red shirt and Nathan looked effortlessly cool blowing his bubblegum whilst Jared and Matthew smoked..They Did all of Aha Shake Heartbreak (i think..)Opened with Molly's Chambers, And did Red Morning Light,Happy Alone, SPIRAL STAIRCASE, California Waiting and Trani. Best was just hearing Caleb sing live he's soo good and you could see the emotion in his little face when he sang milk....guess who almost cried..I sang along and didn't care that I seemed to be the only one at my end. Everyone sang along to "You wit your swtichblade posse....I'll get my guns from Souuuuth....we'll take to the yard like a cockfight....four kicks who's struttin now." And "Eiegggghhhhtteeeen baaaalllldinnnnnng starrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrred." But I was suprised how little sang along to the old stuff and milk. Perhaps it was because people were tired and waiting for the Foos. They did Slow Night So Long last and I really just wanted them to stay forever.

Foo Fighters- I didn't think I'd be anywhere near the front but oh my I was! "Can you heaaarrr me? Hear me screaaaminnnnnng?" ohhh look Dave Grohl has come on stage. How amazing is all I can say. My hero, Everlong -in which dave really didn't have to sing were amazing as was monkey wrech and one by one and times like these.....Dave even burped bless him. I went totally mental I really did and was surrounded by these big men so i didn't get pushed too much. but alas I lost my camera at some point so I had to stay til it had cleared and I found it...well i hope it's it anyway.....will soon find out.

The riot was awful mind....amusing tales of poor emos catching fire though.

brodyfairy @ 2005-08-23T20:14:00

2005-08-24T19:22:18Z

Leeds Tomorrow!

butalsomyresultsohfuck

Oh GOD

2005-08-23T22:33:20Z

"There's less violence in the world when people are using Hula-Hoops." - Mikey Way

brodyfairy @ 2005-08-21T22:43:00

2005-08-22T21:44:56Z

I am in such a bad mood and I'm running out of Gerard Way pictures to keep me happy .grrrr

Go! Listen!

2005-08-20T20:26:01Z

http://www.leebroderick.com/

brodyfairy @ 2005-08-20T11:43:00

2005-08-20T18:58:30Z

Whoop today was fun. Saw Shakers Guy but alas i'm giving up on that front *emo sigh*. But Rachael and I had fun visiting Prez in his trackie heaven....I swear all that sports wear looks the same and Prez was really good at rearranging them :) beautiful shop. So then we wondered to Liverpool after our oh so successful job hunting....and saw what was probally the best singer I've heard in a long time. Rachael and I went to see him at The Cavern in Liverpool where The Beatles did their first gig woop. We met up with Stuey there to watch Mr Lee Broderick. I'll post his website on here when I get it off Rach and I advise you to go on there to listen to him. He really reminded me of Ryan Adams and he actually did a rather beautiful cover of firecracker :) That made me really happy. He was beautiful. We stayed after for a jd and coke then we went off and got the train home but because they live in maghul I had to do the whole emo listening to music looking depressed watching your life flash by intertwined in urban life *sigh* how I want to leave this place. But hey he was amazing.

Lyrics <3

"Firecracker"

Black birds slow and softly breaks a glass of wine
Broken bluesy whisper sing to me tonight
Well, everybody wants to go forever
I just wanna burn up hard and bright
I just wanna be your firecracker
And maybe be your baby tonight
Maybe be your baby tonight

Lady, your kicks of silence cough into your room
Kiss me slow and softly make me dream of you
Well, everybody wants to forever
I just wanna burn up hard and bright
I just wanna be your firecracker
And maybe be your baby tonight
Maybe be your baby tonight

So when does the plane go down
'Cause I'm ride it till it hits the ground
Then go out with a fight
'Cause I just wanna be your baby tonight

"And rock n roll is what I'm born to be"

2005-08-19T22:37:24Z

Do you remember the good old days? It all seemed set in stone, now it's slipping and I fear it's slipping too far.....Do you remember last summer? Think we could go back? Just turn back time...probally not. I mean change is inevitable it's all around us and shapes our everyday lives..but the worst thing of all is to realise that perhaps that which was set in stone was just set in quick sand waiting to sink..then does that mean we're all better off where we are now?

It's story time.

2005-08-18T21:55:26Z

One day The Distillers spilt up soooo Tara and I came up with this story:

Once upon a time in the land of Punk a band called "The Distillers" came to a sorry end or was it to be the end? Read on and find out! Tara and Lottie two very rocking people came up with what they wanted to happen. Maybe she'll start a new band!

and theyll bve even better and kick the ass of the world maybe she'll have more little ginger babies and then.......they'll start a band!! like the followill clan only the dalle/homme clan. However Lottie had her doubts "mmm but i bet they'll be all pale and diethen josh will get all fat and brody will leave him and go back to tim then josh'll knock on your door but he won't be able to fit through the door and he'll get stuck and you'll charge people to come and see him."

"But then he will be stuck there for so long that he will have to write much music to relieve him from boredom." Tara retorted in her usual optamistic tone.

"But he's stuck all you can do is feed him so he gets fatter and breaks lose and becomes like josh man-the giant homme and goes in search of tim to kill him."

"But tim and brody go into hiding in southport!sponsored by lotti theeeeen....josh loses all his weight running up and down the country looking for them and becomes to weedy to beat up tim."

"Tim then says "eee josh you can have Brody back. " to which Brody kicks Tim in the balls and runs off with josh on what they think is a never ending walk way but turns out to be a peir and they fall of the edge"

"But josh is now too thin and weedy to swim so brody has to drag him along and gets really pissed off and needs a new creative outlet to vent her pissedoffness so reforms the distillers."

"And josh is so happy and inspired by her he calls up Dave Grohl "Hello...dave it's Josh. " Dave="Hey dude..." J-"You wanna leave the Foo Fighters and form my new supergroup to kick velvet revolver's ass called foos of the stone age?" Dave-"Ah sure dude." So they meet at Lottie's house for a practice before joining The Distillers, Beck , My Chemical Romance, System of a Down, Auf de Maur and

the reformed libertines for a quick show." Lottie's face lights up at the thought of Gerard Way..

"And josh, though angry at tara for keeping him trapped in a doorway, forgives her due to lotti's insistence."

"Because let's face it," lottie says, "Josh loves lottie but not as much as Gerard Way who to everyone's suprise proposes to Lottie and she accepts ."

"Beck is inspired by this act of love and does likewise to tara.the double wedding is a grand success."

But alas Beck is so in love with tara he says:"Tara darlin i want you to be happy so i think you should also have gael as your lover.And gerard says 'what a good plan, how about you and lotti share mr depp as well?'

THE END XXXXXX

Tales From The Deep..........

2005-08-18T19:08:34Z

Wow what a day! So today Rach and I went to Manchester on the train a whole new experience for both of us. So we got to southport at like 10 and we'd missed a train so we wondered towards HMV to see if the Badmintion was there but alas he was not...so we just bought A LOT of Haribo from Woolworths then went to get the train. The journey in itself was hillarious and rather beautiful. "I throw myself into the rain as we run down these old train...tracks again" Katy Rose sang as rach screamed "That was bescar lane..." And we watched it get further away as we zoomed past...yeah :). The scenery was totally beautiful thought it really was. It only took us just over an hour to get there but when we did our problems started.We spent a good 10 minutes just getting out of the station, seriously it was like a maze of escalators...."It must be the adrenaline" yeah rach :) Then thank god we asked the sweetest lady where to go "Where are the shops?", "Not that way." So yes after following her instructions of "Keep to your right and find starbucks then go right to Afflecks." And so we did and I fell in love with it all over again...has it got bigger? Hmm I don't know but it was amazing. I bought loads of badges...and there were loads of posters....ouch my arms are still hurting :( meow. Rach and I bought matching Blondie badges which...wait for it....kick ass! Then we wondered down the road with the amazing pavement and decided to find H and M which was huuuuge so I bought a bag which is rather pretty :) Oh yeah...then we realised we were damn hungry so where else did we go but up more escalators to Subway ohhh yes :) Then we wondered to the very thin Topshop and rach bought pretty necklacey beads :) We then went off to The Music Zone which had a nice floor :) And I bought the first My Chemical Romance cd :) very quickly. We then discussed certain people and came up with "Brodynympth" "Brodypixie" and "Brodyelf" and realised I'm a bit of a stalker hmmmm. We just had to go back to Afflecks though....and bought beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeads and other stuff. We were feeling clever so we thought we'd get the train so we got back to Southport before half five but the train didn't come until 16*23 so we went back up more escalators to the hmv and I told Rach all about Sugar Rush so she's going to buy it :). When we did get the train we ate yet more Haribo and listened to Green Day and Katy Rose...and of course a bit of My Chemical Romance :) However what we wanted to do when we got back in Southport was not possible then the train was broken so we had to wait with loads of people :( But then we did go home...and it made me sad because the day was over so I watched The O.C and then Rach called me...she's lost her keys...this entry sounds random...but it was FUN. "Tales from the Deep." HA....have I forgotton anything? Oh yeah there were fish by a giant tap..a personal highlight.

For Tara.

2005-08-16T21:01:53Z

Dearest Mr Borrell, If you are reading this then I do love you but Tara is my friend and she needed cheering up....and you're not better than Bob Dylan. x

brodyfairy @ 2005-08-14T23:06:00

2005-08-14T22:15:43Z

Had a wonderful day of drinking with Carey. We will rule kgv. KGV will rule in general...but things will never be there same again.
Also I want Gerard Way right now.....

When botttttttttthhh ourrr carrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrs collliiiiiiiide

oh remember my dream tash?

brodyfairy @ 2005-08-13T20:47:00

2005-08-13T19:49:50Z

"Walking Alone"

Come together like a foot in a shoe
Only this time I think I stuck my foot in my mouth.
Thinking out loud and acting in vain.
Knocking over anyone that stands in my way.

Sometimes I need to apologize.
Sometimes I need to admit that I ain't right.
Sometimes I should just keep my mouth shut, or only say hello.
Sometimes I still feel I'm walking alone.

Walk on eggshells on my old stomping ground,
yet there's really no one left, that's hanging around.
Isn't that another familiar face?
Too drunk to figure out they're fading away.

Well at least Billie Joe is here....kinda..

Have you hugged my t-shirt today?

2005-08-11T20:33:05Z

Ah O.C day number three :) Went rather well. Dressed up as best as I could as the unatainably beautiful Marissa. So Ana, Summer and I went to the Italian Kitchen for lunch and drew California style stuff on the table cloth...but then this guy was REALLY scary and said Lauren/Ana was stuck up and posh and wanted to be an actress...he also said Lauren was 14 HA was so amusing....as was:
"Dude look at that freak!!!"
"Wind"
"Rooooneeeeeyyyyyy!"
God Luke is so amusing in the O.C bless him, he's just so....funny. Bless him. I truely adore the O.C it's so far away from the lives we lead we realised...and everyone seemed annoyed when I said I liked Oliver...but I only meant in an shallow way, not in a no I love his psycho personality way. Hmmpppfff I want to be Marissa Cooper. Also speant the day looking at certain pictures in my silver purse thanks to Nat and Rach my personal stalker assistants.

Today was FUN we talked a lot and smelt stuff ha....yes.

I love the o.c and I love Summer and Ana....and why is Seth Cohen so damn perfect...:(

Doop de doo.

2005-08-10T19:05:13Z

Oh my god I love Nat and Rach.....I NEED those photos now. Tomorrow is O.C day. I have to dress as Marissa...well I don't HAVE to but hey it was my idea and well Summer and Ana will be there too. Damn I kinda want to be Ana :( What would Marissa wear to go to the Italian Kitchen for lunch?

brodyfairy @ 2005-08-08T21:22:00

2005-08-08T20:22:36Z

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

FUCK YOU I'm sorry rage blackout time.